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downhilll....downhill...downhill...

Why is it this way?!?

I'm just wondering though.. why am i feeling this way? ive never been so tired before..nvr so muddled up..nvr so stressed!! Haiz...things at sch are really taking a toll on my..i cant believe that Darren Moore actually says we've to memorize a new piece in lke what?!? less than a week?!? has that man gone crazy or what?maybe he's brain-fried or something...hell yes!!he is!! And relationship wise..im still not getting it...its like its so strained now..well..like its based on studying together...and then having meals..and that's it..nomore holding hands for walks...no more visiting places...no more shopping?!? Aaaarrrrghhh!!! i wanna just up & change my life man..what the hell..!!! anyways im just praying that when he goes to NUS, things arent going to go down the drain...like someone warned me it will..i dunno man..i feel like a trapped shrimp in the net...but whatever it is though ive to just take it in my stride and let things get by with time..but really miss him so much...not physically though..just mentally..and mentally..the earlier times we've spent together..i just wish i could relive them ....