:)late update?!?

hey ho... yes yes its been like ages since ive logged on...anyways nothing much has been happening la..its just exams exams and more exams...*sighs* ..well, i just cant believe my mum la..she's still like so bloody strict..?!? my cousin invited me to go to MOS last Saturday and my parents were in JB..but she still said no?!? Hello?!? wake up!!! its the bloody 21st century!!! gosh!! Haiyoo... anyways there is this super duper hot guy.. ( my cousin's friend..who's like 25yrs old)... like soooo bloody hot...he's a teacher in SJI...i know im attached but no one said i couldnt look see...hahaha...i've just started jamming with him...and he's a wicked bassist...and he sings too...with me!! hahaa...anyways the saddest thing is that he probably treats me like a younger sis....yepps...

well dearest one...im quite glad we talked things out...esplanade did us good...i just love that place!!! ...heehee...

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downhilll....downhill...downhill...

Why is it this way?!?

I'm just wondering though.. why am i feeling this way? ive never been so tired before..nvr so muddled up..nvr so stressed!! Haiz...things at sch are really taking a toll on my..i cant believe that Darren Moore actually says we've to memorize a new piece in lke what?!? less than a week?!? has that man gone crazy or what?maybe he's brain-fried or something...hell yes!!he is!! And relationship wise..im still not getting it...its like its so strained now..well..like its based on studying together...and then having meals..and that's it..nomore holding hands for walks...no more visiting places...no more shopping?!? Aaaarrrrghhh!!! i wanna just up & change my life man..what the hell..!!! anyways im just praying that when he goes to NUS, things arent going to go down the drain...like someone warned me it will..i dunno man..i feel like a trapped shrimp in the net...but whatever it is though ive to just take it in my stride and let things get by with time..but really miss him so much...not physically though..just mentally..and mentally..the earlier times we've spent together..i just wish i could relive them ....

late late updates!!

Haiz ive been soooo busy with school opening and all...i just didnt have the time to update at all!! Anyways...i need serious shopping therapy..to ease and calm my nerves..oooh...i could so easily swoon over a pair of shoes at "Nue" or nine west.. hmmm...oh ya i've spared myself being disgusted at singapore's fashion..and exorbidant prices....i'm learning dressmaking!!!! yay...i know it sounds so housewiey but who cares?!?hahahaha...hmmm...

Ophelia drowned in the waterCrushed by her own weightAnd hitler loved little blue-eyed boysAnd it drove him to hate.Birds always grow silent before the night descendsCause nature has a funny way of breaking what does not bendA heros torso built of steel and novicaneHis heart a bitter beat inside a bloodless frameThere was a hole inside his soulA manicure could not fillSo he found himself a whore to loveWhile daisies choked on the windowsillWeve made houses for hatredIts time we make a place wherePeoples souls may be seen and made safeBe careful with each other these fragile flamesInnocence cant be lost it just needs to be maintainedA small town in ohio, 2 boys are filled with violenceAs night in the darkness spreads its legs for hate and ignorance.We are given to a God to put his faith thereinBut to be forgiven we must first believe in sin.Weve made houses for hatredIts time we make a place wherePeoples souls may be seen and made safeBe careful with each other these fragile flamesInnocence cant be lost it just needs to be maintainedStrange current pulling, a sleepless ebb and flow.Me, I drift sideways, and you, I dont know.I want to live bravely and love without fear.I want to always feel the wings of great near.We all will be christed when we hear ourselves sayWe are that to which we pray.Weve made houses for hatredIts time we make a place wherePeoples souls may be seen and made safeBe careful with each other these fragile flamesInnocence cant be lost it just needs to be maintained.


wednesday 5th July 4.42pm

Go on..just read the text..its sooo intriugingly true eh..i dunno...i kinda feel for it..hmmm meeting my babes next friday for dinner and drinks..haha...been soo long sime we all caught up with each other...anyways..i really cant wait to see Mu...haiz haiz...why does time always seem to go so sodding slowly when you want it to pass??? haiz haiz...

goodness gracious!!!

july 1st saturday 5.59pm

haiz haiz....i finally got my comp back in action!!! oh gosh its like ive got back part of my life...
well well...getting back on track..ive been alrighty..just having fun..being the bridesmaid for my cousin's wedding comming up on the 8th of july..just cracked half my brain on the type of dress i should wear...( gosh i cant believe the colour theme is peach??!!PEACH!!!thot that was so last century)..anyways..there's so much more like hair and stuff...haiz...and i cant wait to get back to school..hmmm hmmm..but seriously i think they should lenghten our academic year...its only bloody 15 wks per term..which makes up sodding 30 wks per year only!!! "WE'RE BEING CHEATED"!!hahaha....well...i have to run now..gotta go for dance practice...ciaoz~

the language of flowers!!

(Just In case you wanted to know)

January- Carnation

February- Violet

March- Daffodil

April- Sweet pea

May- Lily of the valley

June- Rose

July- Larkspur

August- Gladiolus

September- Aster

October- Calendula

November- Chrysanthemum

December- Narcissus

dixie stompz!!!!

20th April Thursday


AAughh!!!I was thinking so hard about this yesterday night...then I thought of voicing it out to Mu...well..im talking about "seeing my bf once a month"!! youre probably wondering how the hell can a relationship work like that eh?? well well...yea thats how it works in mine...i cant erally do anything about it ..all thanks to my stubborn-to-the-ass mother!!! she says anything more than once a month is uncalled for...what a statement??? who the hell cares whether it is called for anot??? tsk tsk...well..i sought Mu and he said he'll try his best to see me as much as he can....like come to the library with me...or just lunch or just coffee...is that sweet or what????? haiz haiz...i didnt know i could fall deeper and deeper in love with him till this kinda things happen...i just thank god i found someone like him...unlike my "past" experiences of people who totally are self centred asses!!!

dixie stompz!!!!

shim sham shimmy...

18April 2006 Tuesday

hmmm....talk about being stressed!!! tomorrow's my recital..and i just finish typing my programme notes..i havent photocopied my scores for examiners...im practically going mad...nuts...paagal...gilah..yea whatever you call it...!!haiz haiz...i didnt even got to my teacher's hse today!! shit shit shit!! ok ok ...im not suppodes to frett about it coa its not going to help anyways...All i can do now is to practice faithfully and go through all my teacher has taught me...so...relax!!!

aaughh!! I whole week...7 days more...shit man..just cant wait for the 25th...if youre wondering why...well..its coz im seeing Mu....which i havent done in almost month...well well....let me pour out what i feel so strongly about this particular "friend" of his!!! i dun wanna mention names la...(im not so mean eh)..she has been msging him and so suggestively asking him out...which gurl with the right state of mind would do that ??? come on la...my BF is attached...for christ's sake!!! to me!!!! she's just being a total bitch!!! Why is it you choose to come around afetr almost 2 years ??? Youre an old issue...almost like history already..so just shut up and flit somewhere else...coz if you dont...youre gg to see a different side of me!!!auugh!!!

10April2006 Monday

Well well...today was so so so good!! haha...after having exam in the morning( which was fairly good)..i went shopping!!! with Gracie..haha...sweet sweet gracie..cant believe that even our shopping taste and budgets are the same..hmmm...well what can i say about a 15 year friendship eh?? hehe...anyways...

...this whole week is soo cramped up with our exams...tomorrow's keyboard skills exam..and then we've got a concert...haha..i wonder what the hell Grace( our choir mistress) is going to wear...she & her stoopid bandage looking shoes...haha...talk about fashion sense...hmmm...anyways then it goes on and on and on...wed,thurs,..luckily fri sot no test...oh but yea datelines for projects..haiz...anyways...next week's recital week and all the buzz about it being practically the last week of school..and then its just the never-ending wait for our results...haiz haiz...

...aaaarrrhg!!! i really cant wait for the 25th...seeing my boo...haha..its been such a long time since we've met...almost 3 plus weeks...can you imagine that?? haiz...i really wish, (although i know its highly impossible) that we met more often...i mean yea i understand that with his NS life and my school schedule its not that easy to meet up and stuff..on a regular basis but i really wish la...haiz haiz...anyways...here's signing off..im going to practice for my recital...cheers!!!

heya finally!!!

April 04 Tuesday 2006 hmmzz..i finally found the time to update...anyways...exams are around the corner....aaaarrgh!!! so stressed!!! music and comp, keyboard skills( which i havent been faithfully attending)hehe...and thank god choir ensem exam's over..just today..it went ok la..haha...enough about school anyways... mm...i dunno why but ive got this increasing sense of mistrust on someone i care about so much for...i dun exactly know why...maybe its because i've experienced this before...a guy tells you he has feelings for you and then you seem to fall all the way down and then he says that he thinks its good if you guys keep a distance..and in a short time he hooks up wth someone else...*blink*blink*tear*...well...yups...but im SUPPOSED to trust this person...but how to?? i feel so much in a wierd situation...its like..i love him yes..but i cant trust him fully....maybe because of the increasing attention another friend of his is giving him..and she's female so to speak..and then sometimes he's all cool and light but some other times he's so uptight....why why why???!!!!

heya finally!!!

April 04 Tuesday 2006 hmmzz..i finally found the time to update...anyways...exams are around the corner....aaaarrgh!!! so stressed!!! music and comp, keyboard skills( which i havent been faithfully attending)hehe...and thank god choir ensem exam's over..just today..it went ok la..haha...enough about school anyways... mm...i dunno why but ive got this increasing sense of mistrust on someone i care about so much for...i dun exactly know why...maybe its because i've experienced this before...a guy tells you he has feelings for you and then you seem to fall all the way down and then he says that he thinks its good if you guys keep a distance..and in a short time he hooks up wth someone else...*blink*blink*tear*...well...yups...but im SUPPOSED to trust this person...but how to?? i feel so much in a wierd situation...its like..i love him yes..but i cant trust him fully....maybe because of the increasing attention another friend of his is giving him..and she's female so to speak..and then sometimes he's all cool and light but some other times he's so uptight....why why why???!!!!

long long time...

20th March 2006 well well..been quite some time since i wrote in...anyways things have been super duper good for me...except for a few hiccups regarding school work..haiz..anyways my dad's suprise birthday party was on on the 18th saturday...it went sooo well..and the look on my dad's face paid off for the whole 3 months of planning with 47 people..haha...and i enjoyed myself to the max...with all my cousins and friends...well..dancing..singing..and woah..my mum danced!!! ahahaha...cant believe it...! hmmm...murali you're just the best thing that's ever happened to me dear..no matter what happens..i'll always stick with you coz you are so much more worth than i ever thought ...i just wanna shout out that i love you on the top of my voice...haha...yea yea i think im going a little nuts over you...well...i love you...!!

12 march 2006

Aaarrrggghhh!!!! I cant wait to see you...cant seem to get over the way you look into my eyes and smile...describe how much you love me...and make my heart melt and my stomach flip...haiz.....heeheee....just love you..!!

Anyways..there's this particular creature i wanna talk about(if you're reading this...you noe who i are!!)...this being just cant seem to get my message in his bloody head!!! what the heck is wrong with him??seriously soo full of urself eh?? i don't want anything to do with you other than being friends!!! Read this!! I DUN WANT ANYTHING MORE THAN FRIENDSHIP!!!seriously..just comply ok...dun bother to impress me and saying sweet nothings...it wont work......ever!!!just sod off!!!eeerrhhgghh!!

It was no accident me finding you Someone had a hand in it Long before we ever knew Now I just can't believe you're in my life Heaven's I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars He sure knew what he was doin' When he joined these two hearts I hold everything When I hold you in my arms I've got all I'll ever need Thanks to the keeper of the starssmilin' down on me As I look at you tonight...

March 5th Sunday:

I can't describe how disgusted i am with her..i was having such a good time and she had to spoil everything!!!IDIOT!!!i feel like kicking he in her butt...why must she always screw things up for me? My life doesn't revolve around her you know...but then again she doesnt know that you see..Anyways ive decided on a few goals...new directions for my future...she can just stand outta the way of my dreams..and my life...

(ps. dear..i love you so much and i'll keep my promises to you always...we'll definately stand the test of time..)

I'll try to make the sun shine brighter for youI will even play the fool if it makes you smileI'll try to make you laugh if there's a tear in your eyeAfter all is saidAfter all is doneI'd do anything for you Come with me, close your eyesHold my hand, it'll be alrightDon't be scared, don't be shyLift your head it's gonna be alright... Febuary 27 Monday: I'm absolutely running outta patience....aaarrgghhh!!!I seriously cant wait to see him on saturday!! Time just flies so slowly before that....eerrhhhgg!! Anyways enough about my impatience...my grandma dearest is in hospital coz she fell down...poor lady...and she didnt tell anyone coz she didnt wanna bother us....how crazy can she get? Just hate to see her in pain...haiz...there's choir tmr (unfortunately the longest block sub tmr and the most tiresome)...and the choice of songs this time around is just toooooo BORING...-not that the previous ones were so interesting either...haiz...just cant stand her teaching u know...she's practically tone deaf and she is being paid $120 an hour!!! God save us all!!

Sundays!!!

Sunday morning, rain is falling Steal some covers, share some skin Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable .. You twist to fit the mold that I am in But things just get so crazyLiving life gets hard to do.. And I would gladly hit the road, get up and go if I knew... That someday it would lead me back to you That someday it would lead me back to you... Febuary 26 Sunday: Sundays!!! I hate them!!!its the mot boring day in the whole week...it sucks...nothing to do and i feel like being in bed all day...its irritating to the max...hhmmm...but then...what can i do??well...tmr..school's starting and i dun feel like waking up at all....aaaarrrgggh!!! I don't like sitting aroundI don't like beating the groundI wanna hear the sound Of me and you just runnin' around

I live by no one's words... 23rd Febuary : Tsk Tsk...i feel the slightest bit irritated today..ive been going on a (so-called) diet for 2 weeks but all ive been doing is enjoying the wonderful thai dishes at thai express and homemade curries by my wonderful mother...what am i going to do? i look like a pillow...a very huggable one (i think)...hehe...but the point is...a pillow??!!??!! *SIGHS*

I like the queen of drama You like the Latin mama I bet you think that’s me You call me even sista Oh no excuse me mister I’m more than what you see Some Latin girls dance in your cheap videos You play some congas Let them dance in those You think you could make me move my hips I’m not that kinda girl Read from my lips Febuary20 Monday: Ooh...its study week at last...time to take a break!!!Well..from school,assignments, and irritating people who practically hound me!!! Mmmm...but i havent decided how im going to relax tho... Febuary 22 Wednesday: Hmmm...i havent done much this few days except for feeling love stuck for some reason...well...i finally finished my floral basic course...and went to rown today...but im feeling bored already...well...my favourite niece mya is coming down on saturday from Canada..together with my cousin...wooohooo...i cant wait...and of course before that im going for a game..(probably badminton..) with my bf...hmmm...cant wait....hehehe!!:)