confused!

Hols are boring! and with what happened recently it really shook me.. well working at the obs & gynae clinic isn't any better.. things aren't good at home.. and i'm struggling to find the right words to tell me mum about THE matter... which sucks half the time coz her birthday and wedding anniversary are arnd the corner.. and murali's just there.. he helps but sometimes i wish i hadnt told him anything.. but then a again who else can i actually tell?? I might sound like a saddistic ass but then i dont really care do i?