clouds in my head

i don't know what to say really.. im just thinking.. is this shit all worth it? you lose people along the way and never get them back.. so thats just great and you have to stick it up to the end?? tat just sounds like a load of crap to me.. ok im not enjoying the new attention in school at all.. i totally snubbed Daren today and didnt even turn to look at Tim..haha... i just loved that moment.. seriously!!And stop calling me waltzling already! So wat if its your country's song??? hello its my bloody name! ...Im very exhausted. Really.. and tired of worrying..and tired of pleasing people.. so what if youre not happy? Im not gg to waste my bloody time getting cookies and tea for everyone while my damn time just wastes away..and im not going to be that person you want me to be.. ( ma im sorry im not ur little girl anymore)..and im tired of smiling when i dont feel like...!