gin & chips week7

oh gosh week 7 is here... thats so freakin fast.. gosh..ok i got my keyboard so Darren can stop being sacarstic... haiz.. weekend was pretty good.. very occupied...haven't gone to cat class for some time..and havent brought Mu for mass too... haiz haiz... ok i have to carry that monstrosity tml and thank god MJ is driving! haha... and i get a lift to and fro... how exciting is that?!? wahahaha.... and i need to get so many things ... and next week is my study break... one week of heavenly sleep... yay.. at last... haha.. ok Highlander ws great.. esp the atmosphere..food was yummy too... u know i just find it so amusing whenever we drink..haha..even if its just magaritas...( & that horrible shot of mars vodka).. we slip out of our usual defences and laugh without much care.. its like being 12 again...almost...hahah... well looking forward to all our 21st birthdays... ok need to get that much needed sleep...

art eccentricities

Art is making something out of nothing and selling it... haha... true true... MJ.. u seriously are a chunk of heaven.. really.. and that pasta was all aahs and ooohs... really..haha..ok here's the dirt.. a guy who can cook , even if not as well as a woman, is quite a hard thing to come by coz seriously, even some girls nowadays don't cook.. ahem ahem..haha...(Dont hate me Elle...haahha).. and of course.. it links us back to the fact that some of the world's greatest chefs are men.. haiz.. haha.. but all in all MJ, you can cook .. quite decently for a guy if i may say so.. haha... looking forward to Bruchetta and Prawn Cocktail on Tuesday.. and your new VW Beetle is sooooooooooo funny... trust me.. i actually was trying to control my laughter , trying not to burst out in front of you coz you look so proud of the orange spots...hahah

wk 4

yada yada yada..school's been a lot better than last yr for sure except theory and aural classes..hate hate hate it.. but do i have a choice?! no!! MJ.. u rock!!! oh gosh did he actually make a pass at me?! Haha..yeah " want a lift home?" haha.. and thats not the only one.. hmmm... nice guitar solos and all... thanks for the compliment about the keyboard solos...hahaha... and dont u ever flirt while performing! Its a warning! hmm..oh man.. time's really passing quickly.. 8 more wks at sch and its hols ... OU really should consider having longer academic terms/semesters..yeah! Need to do retail therapy soon.. did some on Saturday.. flying off to Canada in November ..!! Yay!!

pissy & precious

So yeah im getting the picture now guys! its ok .. my bad so ill pay for it i guess! So Elle, Wendy,Rafik, Benedict and me...GIN AND CHIPS..hahaha... yes and to think that we haven't told Darren about it... wooohooo! Elle is totally cool...haha..well although its somewhat funny..us teaching her singlish when she has such a thick aussie accent! And that day at Blu Jazz was great...Gin and tonic.. 3 glasses and i was still sober..its a wonder..haha... cant believe we were discussing Philosophy around Gin and Baileys...! But guys we totally have to do that again.. and next time.. wendy.. pls pls pls... longer dress!!! Hahaha... you get the ddrift?!? And that dude in my class... Nick's twin bro is sooooooooo totally chic magnet! hahaha...cant stop smiling when i think of what happened today in the libray! Not going to let go of my theory book anytime soon!!! Hahaha!

complicated

Maintaining a complicated life is a great way to avoid changing it!

tsk tsk

what the hell is gg on?!? Im scared!

clouds in my head

i don't know what to say really.. im just thinking.. is this shit all worth it? you lose people along the way and never get them back.. so thats just great and you have to stick it up to the end?? tat just sounds like a load of crap to me.. ok im not enjoying the new attention in school at all.. i totally snubbed Daren today and didnt even turn to look at Tim..haha... i just loved that moment.. seriously!!And stop calling me waltzling already! So wat if its your country's song??? hello its my bloody name! ...Im very exhausted. Really.. and tired of worrying..and tired of pleasing people.. so what if youre not happy? Im not gg to waste my bloody time getting cookies and tea for everyone while my damn time just wastes away..and im not going to be that person you want me to be.. ( ma im sorry im not ur little girl anymore)..and im tired of smiling when i dont feel like...!

keep walking

I'm quiet puzzled why i kinda expected so much outta the NUS show..hah.. but it went well.. & i hope nothing dissastrous happens to the pic that guy took of us..LOL.. well tml back to square 1 .. I really dunno how the hell its going to be again.. so not looking forward to seeing Mona's face and her caustic remarks about not having skills and management crap.. she should just sodd off.. and there's one more thing of course..im gonna have to mesh my timetable with mu's.. haiz.. wonder when that' s gonna happen eh?!?

merry-go-round

The merry-go-round of blame,shame and eveything else starts on monday.. i cant believe my parents actually forced me to do something i don't want to do. Expected more from them, actually from my mum.. didnt expect anything from my dad.. his ability to understand me still stands at a very amazing percentage of 1 % maybe.. and it is so impossible to have a conversation with him i swear..its like talking to a wall!!! ok so i guess i gotta follow rev's advice and tell myself its a stepping stone.. i will i guess.. eventually after i get through this "stress".. hah! and i do hope my time tables meshes well with mu's.. so i won't feel like im having a long-dist r/ship!!!

yak yak yak

If i was so shallowed Shirley, i wouldn't even be talking to the dudette... so shut up!!To all the big-assed mama's .. you rck!! so Shirl, tell me why on earth would you put up something like that on the damned net huh?? If u a really are aiming for 'dudette' to read it and have some remotely good reaction to it, u might be in for a surprise!And also, next time you think of not showing up.. please let me know so i will not look like a total ass! Seriously you should learn.. its time somebody put you in ur place huh?? That's what Em was trying to hint at dinner the other day anyways.. so if you have any sense, pls call 'u-know-who' and alpologise.. thank you!
(ps. Em, you should go with red the next time pls.. Darren loves red! HAHA)

shut up & stop whiniing

ok here goes..i've barely been able to sleep or do anything peacefully.. and i dun have anyone to talk to about it.. well im just scared to approach who i have in mind. Haiz.. alright I already talked to murali about the thing that bothering me since monday.. and it turned out alright i guess..he listened and told me the stuff i needed to hear.Uuurrgh!! I dunnno what the hell is running through my mind and the people around me are just blending more and more into the background.. i msged someone but she seemed too occupied and gave a very brief one..hmmm... to think i even bothered! really... seeming so unsure and all crapped out...

for god's sake

Call yourselves friends?! I recently had a very shocking experience ..well i would say it actually woke me up a lot.. like a jolt to the real world of so called friendship. Well to tell you the truth, friendship my ass!!! Haha..they're the only ones whom I thought mattered but to my amazement they hurt me the most. I wasn't prepared so it took a while for it to sink in. Well, i will never ever make the same mistake of relying on them for anything except "airy" fun..you know you are assholes!!!

xoxo

Haha murali looks so proud carrying his cousin,the baby in the pic. He simply adores his cousin.. you know someone said he looks like he's carrying his own child.haha..

Haiz.work work work. days are passing by just like this. and i ound out today that sam carmel viewed me. im starting to realise she's quite mean. and only i know why. ok my friends are missing in action.and i eally hate to say this but i feel abandoned! hey you out there!! haiz haiz... murali i feel detatched and you know why. this whole mum issue is too much for 2 yrs of relationship ok.. feel like its too much an issue for us to discuss yet coz of all the reasons you are aware of. anyways i just came to a conclusion that i refuse to believe in astrology anymore!!!

sick

im sick of most things..and most people. People.. there are many levels of relation..those who claim acquaintance to you.those who claim friendship.those who claim sisterhood.and even the "best-friends forever" thingy, that's way too gross. seriously tell me if there is one soul whom you can trust at any one point of time with your life?or some serious secret? not a soul.. so why claim these relations at all? they're seriously not worth my time.

confused!

Hols are boring! and with what happened recently it really shook me.. well working at the obs & gynae clinic isn't any better.. things aren't good at home.. and i'm struggling to find the right words to tell me mum about THE matter... which sucks half the time coz her birthday and wedding anniversary are arnd the corner.. and murali's just there.. he helps but sometimes i wish i hadnt told him anything.. but then a again who else can i actually tell?? I might sound like a saddistic ass but then i dont really care do i?

peeps!!

hey babes... when are we going out?!? eeeerrrr!! i hate exams man! i cant wait for it to be over...need to hang out so badly and do some real shopping!!! wow i think im going crazy..i swear!!! its an exam thing i guess.. i need a break!! and i wanna go to ausi!!!! rev??sam??? are you guys alive?!?

haiz haiz

ok im just so stressed with school..why is it that we haveonly 15 freaking weeks of school? what are we supposed to do in 15 wks man? with two weeks of outtimetable suspended? this is so not happening man...

wtf

ok ill nvr make the mistake of "talking" to my mum ever again in the near future..not unless my life depends on it! like how irrirtating is it man?!? ok she started asking me about the choices i make about guys..and then since she doesnt really approve of my bf, i asked her how if he's not the same religion..and then she went on into a lenghty discussion about my bf and he being a non catholic and she made it seem like ill be an outcast in the catholic society and ill rot in hell...wtf!?

deluded-ness!!!

Oh my gosh..im going a little nuts i think..im at risk of not going out for valentines day...how much moreof a sorry state can i be in man?!? haiz....i hate to admitt that im kinda irritated (c'mon ive been attached for like 1 yr 7 months now) but i think my darling BF isnt being fair...OK.. he as work and i said i dont mind not going out for valentines so that he can earn that money..but hey come on..give me a break...Valentines isnt every week or even every month....WTF?!?

back to school!!

you would think the first week of school would be fun in a couple of ways o so...but let me tell you!!! : IT SUCKS!! Big time..its like so downgrading..they show you the whole freakin syllabus and tell you how many damned projects you gotta go through..and how many ( like almost 15) performances and like so many essays to be handed in....aaaarrrrhh!!! i feel like killing Mona Lim..the officail SLAVEDRIVER of Lasalle-sia...("ok don't get me started on her") she just rawks my socks?!? kiss my ass Mona!!!